“Sometimes in battles
we don’t just meet people to hate or people to crash, in reality we meet people
to love.”
2 years ago, I fell in love.
I fell in love
with adrenaline rush, pens and folded in half long size bond papers, I fell in
love with timers, with not eating straight from 11am -10pm, I fell in love with
the armchair, with the podium, with the table, with the floor, with the
auditorium, with Mcdo and KFC, with dresses,
newspapers, magazines, portfolio folders. I fell in love with fishing enemies. I
fell in love with you.
While some passions, are not merely found in the
beginning and that it will grow, if you give your heart to it. I found mine when I was in downfall, when
I can’t barely talk, can’t barely breathe, and almost faint. This is the
same feeling you can get while doing what you thought you can’t do, when you
thought by doing it everyone will judge you, and everyone will hate you. But
that is a misconception, when people start hating you; they’re starting to
notice your fire, the possibilities that they can be overshadowed.
When things fall apart, it’s not because you were weak,
you were not good enough, you fall apart because you knew you made your first
mistake, and that it wouldn’t happen again. Sometimes, when we fall down we
are blinded by hatred, by bad desires, by complaints, by tears. That we fidget
and we become our own monsters. In a sense that you forget the people around
you, who will always be there no matter what, to catch you, to pray for you. Yes,
they may be expecting so much from you, but that is because they always believe
you can. And when things get better, it’s
merely because you knew that what you’re doing is something you love more than
anything else and something that will benefit to those who loves you.
So why did I fall in love? It’s not because you let me.
It’s because I found you, when I was in my worst. You showed me that love isn’t
about the fight and the arguments. It’s about how you believe in me, it’s about
relating to what I believe in and understanding what I feel, and never changing
it. I don’t easily fall in love, but if
I fall, I fall hard. The best thing you did to me was when you showed me
the world that even green grasses had its meaning. Love and Hate are still not opposites.
I hate you for giving me hard combats but I still love you for teaching me about
how much the world can give.
2 years, and I am still holding on to my fire, I may not
be as good as others. But I will always fall in love with you again and again
and again.
Forever Debate.
11-28-09 to 11-28-11 onward.
DEBATE is more than just a SPORT.
It's an ART. It's PASSION. It's LIFE.:)
It's an ART. It's PASSION. It's LIFE.:)
